Dredging

The mind can be a not so funny thing.
Last night, i had a vivid dream. Not odd for me as many of my dreams are vivid. But this one was straight out of left field.

I was back with a former employer as if I'd never left, being my boss's lieutenant. In regards to my work relationship, i often took calls at home and did an enormous amount of work on my time.

This time was no different, I was taking  instructions, performing tasks as if I never left 13 years ago. Yet everyone knew i did, including his wife, the company President. I felt both the stress and duress of all so many years ago.

Its all so strange, even though in my dream I knew it wasn't reality. Very odd!

Changes...

Last Saturday marked a change in direction in my life. I drove to Guitar Center in North Olmsted and used my pre approval to buy a brand new drum set. Pacific Drums, a division of DW.

I also bought a pedal and boom stand on line. Now, i must pay it off to use it to buy a set of cymbals. But I've started again! Now to practice daily. Dot doesn't like it.

I'm also thinking about part time work. Cleaning apartments is great, but not steady. I need a steady, stable part time income....

What was...

15 years ago today, a new relationship started. It was - for the most part- good for the first 3 years.

After the death of my libido, it died. What wondrous times they were. But i was happy once....

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Flash forward to 2014.
Cheryl was gone for 15 months.
I was lonely and thought I'd try again.
I was wrong and broke it off, only to give it a second try on her on 3/17/15. Big mistake.
Importance took over and within 8 months she was already going through the break up scenarios. 8 months!! All due to my importance.
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2016
Rebounding from my worst nightmare, Heather stalked me down. I must admit, I was flattered by the age difference.

Two and a half years later, reality slaps back. Unable to sexually satisfy her, she sought sex outside. Today marks the 3rd overnight with an outside lover. Her whole argument is its just sex, not kissing.

Ive decided it's time....