Decades

When it turned 1960, 1970 and 1980, I lived in North Royalton with my folks.
1990, in Parma with my first ex, Nancy.
2000 with my 2nd ex, Cheryl  in Paris Twp. 2010 back as B/F to Cheryl in Willoughby.
Now, 2020, in Perry Hts Twp  in a part time cohabitation with Heather....

Life g

A review

The years end often brings reflection.

Reflections of the past:
A fling that was like fire and cost me everything;
A second fling with a lover who left me for her cousin;
A second wife who should have been a fling;
A girlfriend who was a keeper, but was too adventurous to be kept, and loved alcohol more than me;
An I'll planned reunion with ex #2 that pulled me down the emotional rabbit hole when she died;
An I'll conceived girlfriend who was also sneaky,  untrustworthy and dishonest;
A follow up girlfriend who is 18 years my junior and unable to revive my sexual prowess.

I have been a fool.
I now realize I was meant to be alone, and not lead with my heart into a relationship.  At least that part will change.

Another Weekend alone

These weekends are getting more frequent.

She goes to her fuck buddy's house. I stay home.
Yet, just last weekend, she flipped out when I went to photograph a show, and when she awoke the next morning, I was gone. I was at work. 5-9 AM. She panicked, thinking I stayed out all night. I should have been so lucky!!

I'm alone in this relationship.
Perhaps it's time I made it permanent.

Christmas reflections

2019 has been all about change.  It started in December of 2018 when I took a job at Giant Eagle.  That lasted until about February of 2019. Lack of sleep was killing me.

I kept afloat with paying photography and cleaning gigs, which lasted through the summer.  Several deciding events occurred. 
1. Heather's more frequent congical visits with her Berea boyfriend killed my feelings for her.
2. I bought a drumset in July,  cymbals in August and auditioned for and was accepted in  a band in November,  with practicing following.
3. The constant policing of Sarah  made heather stronger, finally pressing assault charges after Sarah assaulting her last time.
4. Heather's loss of HER valco job coinciding my  wellness village job, and then months later her getting the insurance gig when I left wellness and went to Menards

Yes, change is all around  me

Another Birthday

64.

Don't feel like it. Sure, some days are achey, some times I stand up too fast and get dizzy, and my drumming isn't what it once was.


However, I am moderately satisfied with my retirement,  and reasonably happy with life, but also I now have a sense that I will again be on my own soon. Can't explain it, but I have ALWAYS sensed when a change is on the horizon,  and I have that feeling again.

Don't know when.... but I suspect that since Heather's  ow going away for weekends, that her meeting his kids will soon follow.  That is when I plan to move.

However, my direction of my employment at Menards will dictate how and where I live.

Research is what I need to do.
Gonna have to put out some feelers...