Another weekend alone

October 29-31..... solo

I'm seriously looking into buying a home. I need cash NOW.

But, time will tell 

well... alone again

Today is October 29. Heather and Sallie are spending the weekend at Randy's.  

I'm tired,  and headed to bed at 8pm. Not much happening except work.  Starting to investigate financing for a purchase.  Looking at a couple houses on zillow in Diamond,  near Ravenna.  

Also, Connie Eichenser died of covid.  Makes me not want to go out any more.  

cars I owned

On October 25th.

1968 Plymouth Fury II

1966 Ford Galaxie 500

1970 Chevy Camaro 

1970 Plymouth Fury III

1977 Chevy Monte Carlo

1979 Chevy Monte Carlo

1980 Chevy Citation 

1984 Dodge Charger 

1970 Dodge Polara

1975 Ford Ranchero

1985 Dodge D50 pickup 

1985 Ford Station wagon 

1990 Dodge Caravan 

1992 Ford Escort

1989 Ford conversion van

1995 Dodge Caravan

1989 Ford Tempo

1987 Porsche 924

1985 Buick winterbeater 

1995 Ford Mustang 

1996 Ford Taurus 

2002 Dodge 1500

2006 Dodge Dakota

1996 Dodge Neon

2005 Ford Ranger

2009 Dodge Caliber

2013 Hyundai Santa Fe

2005 Chevy Blazer 

2004 Chevy Trailblazer 

2015 Nissan Rogue 

2012 Ford Transit 

I used to be angry

When Diana announced that she was going to Michigan,  and for months after,  I was angry.  I wanted to know why she would do such a thing. You know what? The anger faded. So much that I often wondered what would it be like to meet with her again. 

When Jude turned turncoat,  I was not only mad, I did not forgive.  I just chose to walk away and vowed to myself to not return to that area, nor remain friends with mutual friends.  That second part is still being worked through. 

My departure here will be more methodical,  calculated and planned.  I've effectively honed down the drum sets. I've been saving money and shopping for houses. I figure another 6 months and then reevaluate. 

In other news...

George Yunis passed over the weekend . I also went to see Bronx Country at Nashville Nights.  They kicked ass. Anita Jett was there.  She got fat!!!! Ugh.

Friday, October 22nd

Been a busy week. 

Last Saturday,  Dan French picked up the PDP Exotics.  This was the Buzzards and Muddy River Project kit. Yesterday,  I sold (and drove) the PDP Black Pearl kit to a guy working in lordstown, living in New York.  That was the Route 95 kit. 

I still have both Tama Starclassics, and wouldn't be opposed to getting a third,  if the right one presented itself. 

I've begun paying the bills aggressively as well as saving money like crazy.  I want a house of my own,  alone. 

More later...

I just don't know anymore

Things are swirling. 

You know,  when one day blends into another,  events become indistinguishable,  and time flies by...

All I do is work. Then, I pay bills. Then I work some more.  I've sold the PDP Exotics and the PDP CX series is currently up for sale. I've sold the drum mikes and the Remote HiHat. None of that stuff was being used.  I purchased another Tama Starclassic Performer set to replace the PDP gig kit I am having difficulty selling.  

When all's said and done I'll be down to 2 kits, I guess.  We'll see. 

Getting back to work, paying bills and work... the irony  is I don't even have fun going to see bands any more.  Dating seems out of the question.  Prospects are slim. Dot enjoys my company though. 

Meanwhile, Heather added another guy to her stable.  I think she's up to 6 now: Randy (Berea),  Bob (CuyahogaFalls),  Jonathan (Pittsburgh),  Gary (Cleveland),  Eric (Canton), and Adam (Norton). Another guy wants to date her as well... he played with Terry. T.

Am I jealous? Maybe.  

But I've also been consumed with death. Cheryl's 62nd birthday would have been tomorrow.  Randy died July 15th.  Naomi died September 29th.  Vernon Vaponik died 2 weeks ago.  A LOT of people I know died in the last 20 months.  More will happen soon. UPDATE 10/20: Phil Senko died 10/13 due to complications of Covid 

 It's hard to be horny when you have E.D., no confidence and are surrounded by death... especially when you had a stroke 8 months ago. 

For now, I find myself planning and saving.  Let's see what the spring brings. 

10/17/21 premonition

While showering,  I often think about stuff. For a while now,  the year 2014 has more than once popped in my head.  I'd been pondering the significance of that year.... the year I met Jude and my life started tailspinning. I had hoped that it wasn't a constant reference to a very bad time of my life. 

Today, 2014 became 2041. Then it made sense.  2041 could very well be the year of my death.  

But it'll take diligence and health monitoring.  

But now those digits make sense.

October 17 update

Today was a day off.

I was exhausted,  off balance and just no ambition. 

However,  today,  Dan French picked up the PDP Exotics he paid for on Friday.  So I listed my other PDP Black Pearl kit on Craigslist.  Cross posted on Facebook.  Also I listed the Pearl Eliminator Remote HiHat on Facebook marketplace. 

I'll finish the week tomorrow and at 300 to 350. Social security comes in this week too. I have to keep working. I'd like to keep putting 100 per week in savings.  If I keep this up,  I'll have over 1200 in savings by the end of the year.  

Goal is to have enough for an FHA down payment some time next year.  Goal is 5000!

This weekend was also Marlene's wedding.  She's now living at her 96 year old's house. Sarah is going to live with them. 

Supposedly,  Mike and Cheryl are breaking up leaving Sallie alone with her dad. Now both Bob and Randy are going to help Heather try to get Sallie again.  

Time for me to move on. 

weekend update

Actually,  it's October 11th,  a Monday.  

I'll try to catch things up. 

After a relatively quiet week, Heather's back. She spent the weekend at a hotel,  paid for by Randy, using many items paid by Gary's Amazon card, and then went to Bob's on Sunday. Meanwhile,  Dot and I were home having quiet weekend shows in the background while sleeping on the couch. 

Heather will most likely spend at least one week night at Bob's again this week and then the weekend at Randy's. More alone time.

I found myself irritated at Heather's presence at dinner.  I am enjoying my solitude. 

During my daytime work excursions,  I am scoping out the neighborhoods as I travel.  It is increasingly likely that I will purchase a home rather then rent once I leave here. So I'm preparing. 

I've started saving money.  I'll need 3 1/2% down payment.  

And I have ambitions on paying off my drums and consolidation loans ASAP.  

The wheels are turning!

Tonight I got texts from Linda and Lisa.  Vernon Vaponik died 9/24. He was 3 years younger than me. 

a flash memory

Memories are funny. Suddenly,  you remember something and the floodgates open. This applies to my recent flash memory. 

1995. Michelle and my affair is in full swing. Each morning before work,  I'd get a  blow job. At lunch,  a quick fuck in her van. After work, another quickie .

This went on from mid January thru May or June. 3 times a day. It muse have been more than about 1000 orgasms that year

Weekend in review

Heather has taken to teasing me about dressing up to go out.  I'm not liking it.  She's got 5 boyfriends and has the gaul to tease me?

I've been thinking about getting my own place again.  I pay close attention to houses for sale, when I'm out and about. A reverse mortgage purchase is the way to go, but I'll have to save more money for the 3 1/2% down payment.  For a $150k home I'll need $5250. It'll be a while. 

I had more sadness this weekend.  Missing Randy Frazier and Naomi Lawler,  who both left earth too soon.  Randy I'm getting used to.  Naomi,  however,  is a different story.  I never really got to know her and that makes me sad. 

10/2/21

A lazy Saturday,  another friend lost.

Last night was Armstrong Bearcats at Nashville Nights. Always a good time. I paid for it all  day.  Too much beer, not enough sleep.  I'm achey everywhere. 

Naomi Lawler died on the morning of the 26th.  I just started talking to her in July or August.  She was on the same dating site and we started messaging.  She was very cute, slender and had a very big smile. You could even see it in her  eyes.  

She had stage 4 lung cancer and was using a new drug infusion to avoid chemo and radiation.  She was very upbeat despite her illness.  I wish I knew her longer.  We might have actually met.

I sold my PDP Exotic Maples to Dan French yesterday.  He still owes 400 but put a deposit of 100 down. I listed the other PDP black pearl set as well. Got a couple nibbles. Meanwhile,  I wanted to replace the PDP kits with a Tama Starclassic,  and did that last night on reverb. They should be coming next week. 

On the domestic front,  Heather was at Randy's all last weekend until Tuesday,  then Bob's Wednesday night.  While I was out last night,  she left Sallie here and went out for a while. 

I've started looking at zillow to buy a home using a reverse mortgage.  I don't want to put up with this much longer.  More when I have it