Life...

What is it?
Where is it taking me?
Why am I here?
Eternal questions...

This year's posed a LOT of questions - and a LOT of reflection.

There have been a number of cataclysmic experiences this year. The biggest of which was the opening of my eyes.

When one has been "brainwashed" that they can't do any better, it's easy for an employer to exploit that to their own advantage. Compound that with my own mis-beliefs that these oppressive people were my friends. They were most certainly not, and even ripped me off for over 800.00 at the time of my departure. There's nothing Quality about them, or their Title company. Leaving them was the BEST thing I have done there. I won't miss the bitching when I ask for time off, I won't be disturbed at night because my know-NOTHING co-workers didn't know how to operate their computer for the MLS, or couldn't get onto the internet.

In my new capacity - away from the desk-ball & chain - I have had plenty of time to reflect. The BEST part of that job was the certainty I had while I was ironing out C.S.E.A.'s errant accounting and completing the chapter 13. Other than that, I was disrespected and discriminated against virtually every day by the self serving, derogatory, "X" chromosome based management style, complete with loud verbal outbursts and emotional instability. Thank God for that! I now appreciate the opposite!

In addition to the occupational reflection, I also realized that I have a need to be "free" of the corporate grind. I shall pursue this occupationally, as I need to enjoy what I do and feel free enough to enjoy the voyage I call my life - and the things that happen along the way.

In the latter part of May, I realized - as things were changing - that I worked for over 5 years INSIDE.... and at great loss! I'm not a cubicle dweller - but did what I had to do in order to survive. Pity! I wasted over 5 years - inside!

That will change! As will MOST of my life in the very near future. The home I have known (and wanted) for 50 years will soon be gone. Obligations will be upon me for the first time in many years, and decisions - some of them harsh - will be forthcoming.

Opportunity is knocking, and I have opened the door.
Life Beckons and this time, I'll be able to answer without answering to my bosses.
To HELL with them!