A moment of reflection

Today is a beautiful Autumn Sunday of 72 degrees. The sun is shining and what remains of the Autumnal foliage shows brightly despite the lowering angle of sunlight.

In a moment of reflection at lunch, I glimpsed a memory of yesteryear. A thought entered my brain.
I wonder if she ever has these same moments... a sudden flashback... a sudden heart pang... a sudden reflection of past sorrow....

Thankfully, time heals all wounds.
I am also thankful for the late Uncle Chuck's words:

There comes a time in your life when you realize

Who matters

Who never did

Who won't any more

And who always will...

So don't worry about people from your past,

There's a reason they didn't make it to your future

Still...
Being human, one still can't help but play the "what if" game.... and wondering what would have happened if history would have played itself out differently...

Funny - but I've seen it all before...


It seems like the calm before the storm.
Maybe it's the lull after the storm...
Maybe it's just the eye of the hurricane!

My aggressive marketing may have finally been the undoing of me.
My months used to have business cycles within them.
Recently, however, as the economy down turned and I stepped up my marketing, I latched onto a great account that kept me very busy for the better part of the last 2 months.

It enabled me to catch up on bills I never thought I'd catch up on.
I'm now on the precipice of gaining ground and then... just as it mushroomed.... the business has disappeared. This has been the slowest week in 2 months time.

Perhaps it's the lull following the storm.
Or, maybe the eye of the hurricane...
Or maybe it's the fact that Christmas season's on the horizon and people are hoarding their cash and/or their equity.

Time will tell

Winter Approaches

As Autumn creeps by, the subtle hint of a much colder temperature lingers on the horizon. Being chilled to the bone will be much more of an existance as time marches forward. Slower movements become the norm as blanket weather harkens. I had Wendy's Chili for lunch and LOVED it!

Meanwhile, the one-time clock's ticking fades into oblivion. Echoes from my past reserect into my sub-conscious as today's events play out before me, in one last ditch effort to remind me of heartaches gone by. Issues that were once a great part of my life are increasingly non existant. My once crystal clear viewport of the past is gradually clouding over as time's page has turned once again. A path I once thought I might have once taken - and even though of returning to - fades as the future unvails itself.

Work consumes me to the point of exclusion of all else.
THIS path is full of activity with little more than nominal monetary gain - but a gain, none the less.

I am neither depressed nor impressed with this present direction, as long as it pays the bills. I would usually end this with something ominous as "time will tell"... but here's a twist: I don't recognize what I have become. While that could be detrimental, it may also be perceived as good.

Reasons for my past's actions and motivations that once drove me are increasingly unimportant. Being busy is making me money - and while I am not getting rich, I am almost caught up on my bills due to the past 5 months' barren period.... recovery my ass!!!