Labor day weekend

Friday at noon.
Plans change.

I was going to go take pictures. Started watching Harry Potter instead. Chamber of Secrets.... specifically. 

Memories have been ignited.  Her laughter at Ron Weasley's lines... her smile... her enjoyment of her favorite movies and shows. Sometimes,  such as this, I miss Diana. Retrospectively speaking,  she may have been "the one". I did love her so...

Disdain

I understand the need to expand friends lists on Facebook when you utilize it for business. I have no problem with that when you're using facebook posts to market yourself.

But snagging "friends" to stalk someone else's posts, or requesting friends from another's friends list, especially  those you've never met, or bands you don't like borders on neurotic.  The accumulation of the maximum number of friends isn't a race. No one wins.

It has become increasingly irritating that she'll snag my new friends immediately after I started contacting them for business. I found people on her friends list, and even those she claims she doesn't like.... why have them as friends?

Over the past several months, I have been downsizing my mutual friends, deleting those I don't know over an hour away. I'm down to almost 60% of what I had and specifically targeting mutual friends, since I want to diminish the commonalities between us.

It's the first step in my divestiture and liberation

The monarchy

Over the past year, I have grown increasingly interested in the British Monarchy,  it's roots, it's relative's. Monarchies in Germany and Russia, and history's path.

Romanoffs executed; Kaiser Wilhelm, disregarded. The British Monarchy almost irrelevant...  ...to the point where they no longer rule, but as a figurehead, a periodical folly. Sad really, how a one-time institution would erode into mediocrity.

Busiest time in a long time.

The last 2 weekends I've had 4 photography gigs. 3 bands and one senior pictures.  Next weekend there's another band gig. Then one weekend off. Then 3 more weekend photo gigs. All in all, that's more than I've had in years. PLUS cleanings. We also ha e a real estate photography gig for  a couple apartments  in the coming week.

Busy time also for apartments.
Gotta get while the getting is good

Another night alone...

What has become a weekly occurrence,  even more when she's given a  chance, she is spending the night at his place again.

Meanwhile,  I do laundry, shopping and home duties after a whirlwind of 3 weeks of apartment cleaning and photography.

I'm tired.

And to further the drama, I am subjected to her and her daughter's tirades about the kid's lesbianism fantasies with the same girl who rejected her last year. She still follows her, bothers her, bothers others by touching them... despite the school's no contact order carried over from the middle school. 

And on top of that, a court date about a week and a half away.... process server now to be sent as the registered mail was ignored. 

Xanax anyone? Shit's about to get real. Sarah will absolutely become unhinged when confronted with the whole Ariel fantasy. Mike will become unglued. Sallie will go into hiding and Marlene is banished again.

Gonna be  a shitstorm couple weeks!

Best Revenge

I see all these Facebook memes regarding revenge for a cheating ex.

I suspect my revenge has already been played.  Why? The same little birdie who first chirped about Jude's departure  later sang again when she dumped Jamie.  Two weeks later, she chirped again stating Jude found a new guy, and another two weeks when their engagement was made public.

But all that chirping wasn't the dead giveaway.

It was our first Christmas here. Heather received a very lengthy PM from Jude wanting to contact me. Allegedly, I'd left things behind...??? I refused and then two weeks later chirpy bird PMs about the break up with Jamie.  Heather was worried Jude was trying to get me back.

I am a slow learner at certain things.  Perhaps I just needed space to distance myself from her as well as the event. But now, that's exactly what I think happened.

My silence, coupled with no reaction whatsoever was exactly what was needed at that time, and how i hope i w Bruggemeier all play my cards from here, on.

Well played...

Visiting the past

I've heard it said, that when you go places that you went to when your partner was alive, it says if there with you in spirit. Today's visit to Cuyahoga Valley National Park was a bit different. It seems that her presence is no longer here. It's as if enough time has elapsed, and she's moved on. I don't know that that's true however I didn't sense her presence here today.

Some people say that your mind gets busy as you return to Everyday Life, you return to normalcy if you will. If that is possible as my life has changed then perhaps I've turned the corner. However, six and a half years out, I used to still feel her presence. But not today...

Well now...

That job I referred to earlier, never transpired.  I suspect age again.  No matter.

We are now entering the second week in waiting on Heather's modification.  Time moves slowly right now. Last Saturday was an exercise in driving.  14 hours on the road bringing Sallie back from Green Bank observatory.  What a trek.

I'm currently immersed in a marathon 3 apartment cleaning, with back to back weekend photo shoots. In this time frame I'll supplement $625 to our income. That's a month and a half at Giant Eagle!

There are increased publications from the reunion committee on the late October gathering for the 45th. Hmmm...

My mind has been otherwise occupied with money... bills...  drumming... Heather's escapade... Heather's modification... lots of uncertainty to say the least.

Time will tell in all things...