Hindsight is more than 20/20

I just re-read a couple dozen of my recent posts.
In a great many of my predictions, I was SPOT ON!

My apartment is now down-sized;
My bills are as reduced as possible;
My child support now extinguished;
My past - it's pursuits - it's dreams - all in the past;


My former romantic pursuits were parts of my past - but as Uncle Chuck once said - they didn't survive, because they weren't relevent to my path. What do I mean? Well... the mother to my kids actually held me back - professionally and artistic pursuits-wise - in favor af the "Joe Sixpack" 9-5 mentality. She never understood sales, yet loved the benefits of the sucess when it finally arrived. She could never understand the reality of a budget and eventually altered my budgetary course through the use of GUILT. The financial ruin that consumed us resulted in a financial collapse of about $250,000 in debt.

My former girlfriend - whom I met on Yahoo Personals - and then lost to suspician of internet philandering - was never really my girlfriend at all. She and I were a relationship of convenience for each of us - and that's about it. After the learning process about each other died, so did the romance. Familiarity bred contempt and alcohol abuse ensued on both our parts. I simply could endure no more sniping between us.

My present girlfriend and former 2nd ex - well, while she did change a bit for the better - she has also reminded me of "under the surface issues" that are still there. However, I too, have changed. I ignore her rants and refuse the drama.

My kids...
I still see and hear from Jessica about twice a year. Nothing there has changed. With Erica, things aren't really changed either, as I still get phone call updates from her. Michael and James stopped visitng about a year ago. That freed me up to reduce the size of my rent by downsizing. These two have been the biggest disappointment as they were with me the longest - every other weekend - from 2001 onward.


Employment ...
Has been sparse this summer. While I see a subtle surge NOW... it's NOT what is needed to survive. While I can see myself doing this for the rest of my life, I can't forsee the interim time... the time between here - and ten years from now.

Shortly - I can see turbulence and unrest across the board. Personal as well as National. I need to work harder on myself.

BEWARE!
The Future is opening the door - whether you invited him or not!