Time

The past few days have taken me down memory lane frequently.  I spent a couple days going through parts of Medina county.  Seeing some sights I have not seen in 15 years.  Bringing back memories from a happier time with Diana.  Seeing some closed stores and restaurants I either frequented or drove by in the past.  

Depression memories stir. Mostly the emotions of loss. Loss of a good relationship,  of a good lover. Look of a happier time.  

Then I think - what could I have done differently? After contemplating,  I realize the only one thing I could have done was to end the daily drinking.  But that would have to be agreed upon by both of us, and she wouldn't have let it go so quickly.  

Gout snapped me out of it. But only because she was already out of the picture.  Had we still been together,  there wouldn't have been the resolve and I'd still be her drunken boyfriend and she my drunken girlfriend. Truth is,  we weren't in the same circle anymore.  

Time.

I have it NOW,  to remember a feeling of entrapment back then. 

And the me of now is twice removed and re-evolved into a different me

Additional Signs

Like a  bouncing ball that makes more contact after each bounce,  Heather has been letting things slip more frequently.  

After purchasing her computer she toyed with the idea of speakers and chose headphones. She also uses them on her phone now when she doesn't want me to hear.

Yesterday,  she let slip that she WAS going to Randy's on Friday. coming here for her eye exam, and afterwards if she felt she could see, ho back "home" to him later Saturday for the rest of the weekend.  She claimed earlier that she wanted to be there to give me my space,  claiming Randy was going to be in Columbus all weekend.  However,  in the past she also said she could never live alone, (so I guess he IS home).

Also, in the past days she's gotten nails and hair done and Randy likes her that way. I think he's home this weekend.  

Last Tuesday,  she came in to my room stating she was worried that she hadn't started her period. She said she can't be pregnant because he's fixed. .. uh huh

Last week she went on and on telling me that she had never had a meeting of the sexual minds with anyone before Randy.  She's never had a lover like him. Well, why brag to me about it? I'm not Dear Abbey. 

She also said about a week ago that Randy wants to take her away on vacation after this coronavirus is over.  

Two or so weeks ago she said she wants to tell Sallie about Randy.  She feels that she needs to tell Sallie.  I thought at the time that it might backfire on her plans for custody  and Heather then agreed. 

Just days ago,  she suddenly began dumping Facebook friends.  WHY??? Unless she's getting Randy jealous by having so many.  PLUS there were at least 4 people she borrowed money from after her layoff. One guy she claimed gave her $2000. Why, I wonder...

 Payment for sex? She did that before. 

She's also spending money like crazy. All sorts of trinkets and things,  computer and desk, clothing,  stuff for Sarah.  A windmill and yard art. Paid off her car. Making noise about paying down the attorney fees.  

July is the court date.

Sallie has to follow up with the GAL to restate her preference.  I don't think she will. Randy offered to go sit with Heather in court and at first she said no. My guess is that things have changed. 

A LOT!!!

The next months could tell if I am moving soon. I'd better get prepared 

 

Changes

Tomorrow could cost a bit of money but the steering in the new Nissan will be secure. Then, back to work. Work is now a same day delivery service called Roadie. If I do 4 a day, 5 days a week,  I surpass Menards old income.  I've been working every day I can to build up my CU account.  Soon, I will have 600 in it like I did 3 weeks ago when I bought the car. In addition,  I have paid down/off other Bill's from that account as well.

Work is fun. I drive around the area for 4 or 5 hours and get paid in 4 days. Deposits happen 3 or 4 times a week. I've been keeping the funds separate from the Huntington checking as Heather has had no income for quite a while.  Soon, I think I'll move the social security over and then poof. Heather is on her own.

I'm tired of her drama, her constant lawsuits and her excuses.  She can have Randy and I'll be off on.my own somewhere else. I still wonder about out of state. We'll see 

Cleaned house

This was unpublished from May 7th 

Yesterday. I woke making a decision.  

1. Clean out all faceless Facebook friends.

2. Clean out all masked Facebook friends. 

3. Clean out all Facebook friends using their profiles to preach stay at home.

This was on top of the mass war I began waging against Dewine and Acton.  

The clean out took out some long time Facebook friends as well as recent antagonists.  Then I posted my cleaning and took out two more dissents.  I dropped 60 people when all was said and done, including Guy Christopher from the Buzzards.  Rick later posted something like "can't we all be friends?" After one day, I responded  with "not if I'm being preached to".

Today, I noticed that my name was removed from the Buzzards Facebook page. So, after my deliveries,  and dinner,  I went downstairs to remove the Buzzards drum head, replacing it with the ported Aquarian black drum head I purchased last year.  Then I posted a pic stating that the drums were reassembled for post lockdown activity.  

That ought to get a rise out of them. Still, since my name was already removed from the Buzzards page, I suspect that Rick already told them. Coupled with the complete lack of group texts, I believe it to be true..

A realization

I learn some lessons very difficultly.

Just because someone is your girlfriend's friend,  doesn't make them yours. Case in point, Sheri Eckrich(sp) now known as Sharon Horvath. She was never really a friend and I just now realized that.  Neither was Michelle Andre Mitchell. Nor Bobbie Yerman. 

It's so plain now. None of many of my Facebook friends were actually friends. Rather, they pitied the lost soul Eric who was Cheryl's boyfriend.  By extension,  that includes Sammy and Todd too. Another shockwave to the core!

So very many Facebook friends weren't!

They just pitied me. 

I should have moved away YEARS ago.

the Disillusionment

Two months ago the house arrest started.

I actually followed the nonsense early on.  Then, as the numbers didn't add up and the agency claims grew more preposterous,  I realized the scam for what it was. Now, Fuehrer Dewine and sidekick Acton claim they are opening up. 

Meanwhile,  contact tracking is being employed by the state with hundreds of temp agencies supplying the workers.  It's 1984... only Orwell didn't write it. 

Yesterday the Senate passed a bill permitting internet surveillance without a warrant.  California is making vaccinations mandatory.  Covid tests being done like drunk checkpoints in Florida.  The country is going to hell.

Guns and ammo.... need stockpiled, just like I professed in 2008.

18 years

18 years ago yesterday,  I met Diana.  

She was a slender,  tanned blonde with blue eyes.  A real life hottie.  Within a week of meeting,  we were seriously in love. Our first 3 years were wonderful.  After that,  it slowly died through alcohol and apathy.  I doubt that it could have been revived as her wandering eye had already surfaced.  But those first few years were dynamite!

The seven year pattern

An inspiration occurred while in the shower.  Every seven years backwards,  an event occurred.  Either regarding housing,  women or jobs.

Starting this year,  2020. Left Menards for something I like,  Roadie.  Also, this is the year of the coronavirus,  so MASSIVE unemployment. 

Jump back 7 years to the death of Cheryl and my move to Middleburg Hts.  It's 2013.

Jump back another 7 years it's 2006. Changing jobs from Quality Title to Flagship Mortgage.  No changes women-wise.

Jump back another 7 years to 1999. Left Any number of prior employers. Met Cheryl.  Moved to Ravenna... and back and forth ... a few times.

Jump back again to 1992. Left Cuna Mutual for Chemical Bank. No change women-wise. Still Nancy. 

Jump back to 1985. Left Cerinos for Colonial  Penn. No change women-wise.  Still Nancy. 

Another 7 years back, 1978. Interest in Nancy  dashed and dropped out of school for a while, but still at Cerinos, still home.

Babk seven more, 1972. Started at Carrie Cerino's. Started with Cepheus.  

Back to 1965.... 5th grade, found interest in girls, specifically Polly Scholz. 

good shit

From a constitutional lawyer: 

Re-Posted: 

Current Federal and State law:

You do NOT have to stay home.

You do NOT have to close your business.

You are NOT restricted in your travels.

You are NOT banned from religious assembly.

These are NOT laws, as a law must be passed by your state legislature. And, of course, this has not happened in any of our 50 states.

These following orders are UNLAWFUL “orders”:

Stay at home,

Close your business,

Don’t go to church,

Practice social distancing,

Wear a mask,

No interstate travel etc etc.

These are NOT laws that can carry any kind of criminal penalty for violation. They are at best ONLY guidelines for "suggestion". These "orders" carry NO legitimate force of law with which to back them up.

NO governor nor mayor may craft a law and assign a punishment for its non-compliance. They can't. And, even if one of these tyrants tries to do so, such orders or actions would then be profoundly unconstitutional and a solid basis for compensation to "anyone affected" by them.

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The Free Exercise Clause of the First 1st Amendment firmly establishes freedom of religion as a fundamental liberty, and the Due Process Clause of the Fifth 5th Amendment firmly establishes your right to purchase a lawful product in interstate commerce from a willing seller as "fundamental".

Fundamental liberties are in the highest category of liberty, akin to freedom of conscience and speech and press and privacy and travel.

Right to Congregate/Assemble Per the First 1st Amendment to the United States Constitution:

"Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances."

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Right to Travel:

DESPITE ACTIONS OF POLICE AND LOCAL COURTS, HIGHER COURTS HAVE RULED THAT AMERICAN CITIZENS HAVE A RIGHT TO TRAVEL!!!

Per our 14TH Amendment to the United States Constitution (abridged):

"The right of a citizen to travel upon the public highways and to transport his property thereon in the ordinary course of life and business is a common right which he has under his right to enjoy life and liberty, to acquire and possess property, and to pursue happiness and safety. It includes the right in so doing to use the ordinary and usual conveyances of the day."

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Stopping a tyrannical overthrow of the United States AND the WORLD, the stripping of our Liberties & Freedoms BEGINS with YOU. Do your part and STAND UP for yourSELF before you no longer have a self to stand up for!!!

These are the facts. Stop letting tyrants lie to you. Call them what they really are = Tyrants. 🇺🇸✊🏼🗣

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Mayday

April was a waste. 

Fuehrer Dewine and sidekick Deputy Fuehrer  Acton have obliterated Ohio and late in the dark of last night tacked on an additional four weeks of totalitarian lock down. 

I quit Menards 4/18,  due to their ridiculous face mask mandate. Their further requirement for all customers to wear them assures I will never shop there again.

I also blew put a front axle on 4/29. Replaced the Trailblazer on 4/30 with a 2015 Nissan Rogue.  Cool car. Better mileage. 

The highlight of April was Roadie.  On the very day I quit Menards,  I started Roadie deliveries.  If I do 4 per day, I'll replace Menards income. And I'm not busting my ass. 

I'm tired. Emotionally.

I also closed up the photography and graphics companies.  No sense trying to compete with the advancements of today.

I also left the Buzzards band. No interest in playing with Guy on many levels... musical tastes, youth, genres of music, and political differences.  No sense going when you don't belong 

Finally,  Sallie. Apparently,  she did not speak her mind. I'm done. It's up to Heather if she wants to continue or not.