2020 sucks

I started weekend roadies to make extra money.  Now I do it to stay away from the house.  Today I got a call from Heather's phone as I pulled into the car shop to get my tires retorqued. It was Rachel next door. She and Mike were babysitting Heather during one of her meltdowns. 

Oh joy. Heather can't be left alone. 

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I hear from Lauren less and less.  

I'm letting her fade away.  2031 better be better than 20 was. I need some happiness in my life.  I'd like a slender,  confident blue eyed woman in my life who wants to love me both emotionally and physically.  

Heather can go to Gary for all I care.  I'm tired of being the caretaker in my relationships.