Friday, December 10, 2021

the tide has turned

I learned a hard lesson tonight about missed opportunities.  Dawn was professionally distant. Anita was drunk and funny, but distant.

Tonight was Bronx County and although half the band is friends and the other half friendly,  I was just a face in the crowd. 

Soon, I expect that will be true everywhere.  Just an anonymous crowd member. If my plan goes the way I hope it will. 

Meanwhile,  I'll be 66 tomorrow.  No way I'll ever pay off a mortgage if I ever get one.  Time has come to face facts that I am nobody and it's never gonna be more perfect to dissappear