Directional Shift
In a few, very short months I have seen things invert several times.
I not only speak about our out of control, spend-thrift socialist government (who by the way will eventually clamp down on ALL of our rights - INCLUDING posts to the internet) - but also of personal revelations that have left my world with no reference points that are recognizable.
The avalanche of change began long ago.
I can't really nail it down for certain, but the "spark" that lit today's ever-shortening fuse may have been when dad died. Although professionally, I had radically shifted gears a mere 2 years earlier, all seemed OK at the time. Still other "traces" of the initial spark were lit back 7 years prior when I got engaged.
But none of that is relevent for this topic.
What IS relevent is the course I have been on for the past 12 years is about to end. Yesterday, I began the process of emancipating my youngest child. In 2 months, the entire child support ordeal will be complete and I can close the door on that chapter of my life.
What lies ahead is new ground - never before taken.
It's like being reborn.
On one hand, I have been bemoaning the fact that I had filed bankruptcy 3 times and been foreclosed upon twice. On the other hand, it could indeed become extremely liberating to have NO CREDIT!
I am currently toying with the idea of moving in June. My lease is up. My kids all grown. My child support will be OVER. I have sent my loan officer license back to the state about 2 years ago and my realtor's license is now also inactive at the state. My ill-thought out LLC that I purchased almost 3 years ago has been cancelled prior to my move, which will make the severing of that record all the easier. I should be DONE with R.I.T.A. as well. I cancelled my business website and built a sub-domain in my personal website for by 1 page business webpage - thus saving $132 per year.
Last year, I eliminated my cell phone obligations (my cell is on someone else's plan), discontinued tanning thus saving 250 per year, ceased collecting CDs Video's etc, and all but halted ALL ebay activity, saving hundreds - if not thousands.
16 months ago, I traded in a gas hog for an economical 4 cylinder car, changed over insurances and dropped my land line, also saving hundreds - if not more.
All extraneous spending has been eliminated save for one new hobby. Rock & roll photography... and note I said HOBBY!
A cornerstone is being reached.
My initial delusions of returning to the stage as a drummer have faded in the fog as well as my being a professional rock & roll photographer, which was a bigger delusion. My drumset, now dis-assembled in parts all over the livingroom, might just remain such indefinately. My willingness to give up my facebook six months ago - and in the process of down-grading and stripping out my MySpace account to all but a generic name and no information - and most importantly - eliminate my 10 year web presence (erocker.net) - is in the process. The final elimination of my website is yet to be determined, but can ultimately happen should outside influences continue on their present track.
The time is now for a revelation.
The time may also be right for a revolution. Having divested myself from everything of value, I may be ripe to become one of the new Patriot foot soldiers in the new revolution.
Time will tell
