Unexplainable Events

I seem to be adrift in an eddy of swirling changes.
In the past, much of what happened to me was directly related to cause and effect results surrounding my activities. Lately, however, things are happening in so many and unrelated areas that many of my traditional reference points are now blurred in the distance.

Some of it is directly related to every one of the 546 complete blithering Washingtonian assholes and their agents' activities. In 14 months since the crown's ASSention, nothing resembles the old republic and that concerns me. If these massive CHANGEs continue at their present pace, I may not be free enough to make my stealthy move in a mere next few months.

But it's far more than that.
My relationship has shown it's true claws. Held at bay, it could be tolerated. But I will no longer live like that with anyone - whether they be caring half the time and a bitch the remaining time - or whether they choose to drink away their brain cells in front of a fish pond. Neither situation is desirable any longer.

And it's still more than that.
My extreme dissatisfaction with the musical pursuits has left me cold in my own pursuits - wondering if my discretionary spending is more worthwhile being spent upon armaments and disappearing, rather than an extreme extravigance such as a drum set.

All I see in the future is hardship.
Every avenue I peer down - a different type of hardship.
I am wondering whether it's better to be forewarned and forearmed than to pursue my last remaining childhood desire of drumming in a live music band. Especially when bands - as well as the bars who employ them - are struggling. Seeing how all of my remaining childhood dreams and visions of my life have died a most bitter death in the past 10 years...

Perhaps time, money and efforts would be better spent learning a trade like black-smithing. Horse power... I mean LITERAL Horse power - may be the labor saving devices in the near future, once this economy and country collapse. The VERY NEAR FUTURE