EVERYTHING is on hold.
Yesterday afternoon, I went out to take photos. It was only the second time this year. It felt good, but now I must be going back to work. I need to make more money to pay off bills.
I don't like where I am at emotionally either. I seem to be "on hold". I DID get to play out again, which was something I thought I would never do again. Now, I'm at an emotional cross roads with it. Music is good but the environment to play out is not. I now feel that it'll be 2021 before we see some form of normalcy in this world.
What will definitely HAVE to happen will be housing. Where will I live when this is over? Heather is all wrapped up in her boyfriend and beneficiary. She's not working much. Her future will be dependent upon the outcome of her trial.
Whatever happens with the trial, my future is not with her. I see us parting ways sooner rather than later. Because once the trial is over, there will be some other form of drama that she'll drum up, and I can't live that way. I want peace and solitude.
I'd love to live in a smaller town anyway. There's already too much hustle and bustle here. I'd rather be further away.
Time will tell I guess. Nothing to do but work and pay off bills right now
