Friday, October 02, 2020

time's up

Been thinking about emotionally releasing the past. Just letting it go. However,  isolating the problems are difficult. 

Cheryl triggered me with her emotional screaming outbursts.  Then her demeaning,  condescending words. 

The same thing happened with Jude. 

I believe it started with Nancy's ranting after the affair.  The subsequent spending spree bankrupted us into a point of no return. 

When a girl starts screaming,  I get tense, and want to head for the hills. In the past, even Diana yelled and I subsequently spent money on rocks, sump pump and drain tile. 

Either I have to isolate from girls or hibernate.  

Now, a funny chain of events.  
A ghost from the past refriended me last night. After half a year's absence,  and 2 recent trips to see Impulse,  Suzanne Sohar popped up.  Funny thing is,  I had thought about her sexual texts and messages just recently.  Thought I might try to take her up on her propositioning me this time. See if I can finally climax in a girl. We'll see