So mymind wandered. Wandered to things I couldn't do in the past. The main theme was drums. All the was back to mom's discouragement of my drumming. Nancy didn't discourage me as much as she wanted a 9-5 husband and since she disliked my day jobs, I wasn't about to try and gig at nights... especially since 1995. After that she would never leave me alone long enough.
Cheryl was too insecure about herself and big boobed women to let me even try. The one time I did try, she didn't let me forget about it for weeks. Too afraid it would be another Dave's planet with women throwing themselves at me.
Diana thought it was cool i was a drummer, but we never went out... just got drunk at home all the time.
Jude was obnoxious and derogatory towards me at every turn. She was a serious mistake in judgment.
Now,, after being verbally or emotionally held back most of my life, I have to fight back into form to play again.
I've got to get well!!!
