Wednesday, April 28, 2021

Triggers

There are certain events which I wished never happened. 

1980-Don Cerino asking me when I was going to marry Nancy.  I subsequently proposed.

1985- April 1st.  Flirting with the new salad girl.  I didn't conquer her, but that night got head elsewhere,  which enabled the Michelle incident later.

1994-While in California,  I came extremely close to having an affair after drinking in the sun with the front desk girl for the office.  This triggered my spontaneous affair with Michelle starting 2 months later,  and ultimately triggered Nancy's catching us.

1985- Nancy became obsessed with my talking to any girl. She spent money like crazy in the next 4 years,  leading to the bankruptcy and divorce.  Yes, I cheated.  But her obsessed behavior and telling her family caused our divorce as much as anything else. 

1998 - In many ways I wish I never met Marybeth.  Those rendezvous we had lead to about a dozen affairs during the last year of our marriage.  Ultimately it lead to meeting Cheryl. 

1999 - I wish I was stronger so not to have moved in with Cheryl.  ThT lead to 2 years of unhappiness,  divorce and another bankruptcy.  

2005- 1.I wish I never pursued the transfer in death deed. It lead to the 2009 bankruptcy. 
2. I wish we didn't drink so much (Diana and me). I might not have endured her looking elsewhere. 

2008-Cheryl part 2
2014- Although lonely, I wish I'd never have pursued Jude. 

2016- I wish my ego would have dropped the idea of Heather.